lonely dark creepy internet tonight - maybe not creepy. trying to ween myself again, still.

Well, I anyway I had forgotten that Adri and I think team Albuquerque, based on Kenn's post, which mentions some place that sounds like it may be near Big Sur, will be at the Big Sur tournament. Some Berkeley peeps were asking me if I was gonna go to it, I said I didn't think so, but now I think I will. I very very very rarely go to contests I'm not competing in, you know. I think it's an obsession created long ago and also not so long ago, having to watch ice hockey and football games in my street clothes when I didn't make the cut. Boy I hate that I mean man alive I really fuckin hate it.

Aaaaannnnnyyyway.

The Greeeeeeeeeeeeennnn Shadow.

The front wall of the control room is ready to go. After much deliberation I finally nixed the bed foam that was falling off the wall because its glue doesn't work, it's not as efficient as the rigid fiberglass, and harder to make into nice panels to screw to brackets like the fiberglass, so I bit another bullet and bought what I think will be my last set of Owens Corning 703. I made all the panels today, mounted the brackets (I went with liquid nails on the brick wall instead of drilling, because I got sick of trying to drill at bad angles for hours). I finished out the row of treatment on the ceiling above the control desk, did some cleanup, and put the control desk back in place. Dusted, wiped, took random crap off, that was good.

Went to Michael's today too looking for something I could maybe claim was open cell neoprene. What I found were many "foamie" products for kids. I went with what looked like packages of four 2"x2"x1/4" foamie things, but turned out to be goddamn foamie boxes with a magnetic latch. so I ripped 'em apart and turned 'em into 2x2x1/4" goddamn foam things, goddamn it! :) And I used those to decouple the monitors (speakers for the lay-man) and the subwoofer. So now I've got the control desk/front of room pretty much rarin to go, minus wiring the balanced patch bays, which is a stage two thing anyway. For now we'll work with the unbalanced patch bays.

Did some work for Cloud from home today too, little bits. Worked and worked and worked on all this studio building crap til 12:40 AM - I guess I got up and got to it about 9:30 this morning.

I'm so proud of how I've been tearing apart all this stuff I already have and transforming it into this fucking studio. Cuz yes I've bought building materials and shit, but also there's a lot of stuff that I have UTILIZED, baby. Like all these pieces of fabric that were on sticks that Tamara and Micki (formerly of Houston now back to Denver and boy was she a goddamn hotty I wanted her so bad oh sorry) designed for the cosmetics of the absorptive material before, I retransformed 'em into fabric that goes on these new fiberglass panels. not the most difficult ingenius thing ever, but somehow I'm proud. Or just cutting up the old bed foam shit and doing my ceiling treatment thing which is just COOL. Aaaaannnnyyyyywwaaayy.

Got a call from Adri in the afternoon. That was cool. She was like "come to Big Sur ok well I gotta rehearse bye" *laugh* Adri's real sexy too but don't tell her I said so *wink*

OH geezus I just thought of something I forgot. Hmmm. Well never mind it I guess.

Man. I dunno if I should go to Big Sur tommorrow, Sunday, both, crash on somebody's - uh - tent *wild eyed Dr. Brown look* or what - got so much fuckin stuff to do. Jesus so much fuckin stuff to do. La lalala alalasasglkajsg. But then again this Big Sur thing is shaping up to be a kickin deal. Ya' got 'ol Adri, ya got Kenneth and team ABQ (I think) and ya got Karuna who's the one who was askin if I was goin. She gave me an invite to a party at her place in a couple weeks I'm gonna go. She came up and said "your poem sucked" and I said "thank you - er I mean fuck you" Come to think of it she's cute too.

I gotta think up some girl I don't think is hot so that it's not just this everybody's hot thing. Let's see. Ok I got a couple. I mean you know what, I never really liked Cindy Crawford either. And Jennifer Aniston. Neither of them really do it for me, sorry ladies. So, as we're keeping score at home:

Hot: Micki, Adri, Karuna
Not: Cindy Crawford, Jennifer Aniston, Martha Stewart

Where have I gone with this entry? I thought I was talking about the control room. Most people make succinct entries about one subject. I often just ramble until I get physically tired. I probably don't have enough people to talk to.

Jamie Kennedy makes me want to fuck a watermelon.

Satan makes me want to fuck a block of cheese.

I've been silly all night. Dustin was playing Tenchu Stealth Assassin and I kept saying stuff like (literal examples here):
"Use your grapling hook - cool! Sneak up and break that guy's neck - rad! Now see if you can see if you can have sex with her. See if you can burn yourself - wow you can! Now see if you can go to the store for peanut butter! Try to sit down for dinner. Shave!"

Most of the stuff you can't do in that game, but wouldn't it be rad? I noted and Dustin agreed how if it were the peanut butter game, I'd be saying "run that guy through! Kill him! See if you can tear his heart out!" but in the killing people game I'm mostly saying "see if you can go to the store for peanut butter!" and such.

Am I just contrary is that the thing?

Erica, did you forget?